Woah. It’s been a year.. Now, its my little angel’s 1st Birthday! Happy Birthday Baby ko!

—- Let’s just say I need advice on this —-

Why people keep thinking that I am bad person? I am kuripot? I am boring? Why do I always end up being hurt? I am sorry, just need to voice out what I am feeling right now. I feel so lonely!

I have trying to be patient with them the whole time. Not saying anything.. but what can I do? I am just a human that they can hurt my feelings.

As you can read on my past post I always complain about my neighboor, friend, and relatives behavior. They always talking about us and saying bad things. And yeah, I admit that I am snobish but why before I am not married to a foreigner they just ignore me and they just don’t care If I am not talking to them. And now, whatever I say and do; It so important!

I just, just don’t know what to do. I want privacy not like all people know about what I am doing.

I woke up at 7am. The doorbell rank ‘ting - tang’ guy said; Basura! basura!. It’s always like that, they rank the bell so early. Yah, for me it’s early because I usually woke up around 9am not 7am.

My eye tired and body feeling weak! I have 4 hours sleep.

My sister leave at 2am with my family. And I slept 2;30 something.. super tired! 3weeks another memories and I treasured those time we spent and I never forget.

Have a nice day everyone!

Hey People!

I’m back! I haven’t update my blogsite lately because I’m really busy here. As you remember on my previous post regarding my sister vacation. I can say; time is really flies by. After 3weeks spending time bonding with her  - tommorow - in the next day ( 1am at midnight - November 18, 2008 ) I woke up not seeing her; so bad; everytime Im on bed, taking a nap; I wanted to cry, talking to myself; and asking; when Im gonna see her again?; when she gonna visit here again?; Is she ok traveling by her self back to florida? I know she’s gonna be fine, but sometime I just feel like this.. worried!

When she’s gone, diko alam san ako mag - iistart ulit. I always remember things what she always do. Enjoyment, bonding, hangout with her! I will miss it!

After all bad things I done before - she’s very patient teaching me what is life is; what is good and what is bad! she’s the perfect ate i ever met! kaya nga kapag sad ako, and I have things that I can’t handle  - I always say to myself; I wish I have sister now, who can talk to. But as you know guys, people have own life; things they need to be done; and own problem.

So here Im now married to a very kind man and lovely man always support me!

—    so tired.    —-   taking  a  break blogging    —–

here i am back! woah. its raining outside. umuwi akong wet. haha. grabe, laki nang tubig sa daan. may bagyo ba?! diko kasi alam eh. di man ako nanunuod nang telebisyon. ^^

by the way, how’s everybody doing tonight? well, as of me; im feeling fresh.. yahoo, ang sarap maligo. tapos mahiga habang nakikinig sa patak nang ulan. i love it!=X

well, bloghopping - tommorow. goodnight!

im supposed to be writing this lastnight, but im already sleepy.=D

yahoo. november 08, saturday morning; my little girl start walking. ang sarap pala nang feelings kapag nakikita mo lumalaki anak mo. i can’t believe that i have already baby!:) some people they thought that im just her “yaya”/”baby sitter” because im small, my height is ; 4′8 ; and my little girl is already half of me! waah! and im so skinny, and my baby have a healthy body! some people nga kapag nakikita baby ko. they always thought ; siya yung sa commercial sa pampers!:). like nung na hospital baby ko, mga nurse, tao na dumadaan sa room namen, they always wanted to touch her and carry her! =X

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ganyan talaga mga pilipino ano? taka sila? hehe. i remember pa nga, when nurse trying to put needle on my baby hands. some people on the next room.. pumasok sa loob nang room namen, tapos nagbubulungan. sabi nila oh.. “hay, ang cute cute niya! kamukha niya ung nasa commercial sa pampers oh, ung sumasayaw!” tapos biglang tanong ako, ikaw ba yung ina niya? sabi ko. oo, tapos sabi nila ” prang di daw!” yay,:(

some my relatives naman, and friend; di naman sila naging proud sa baby ko or samen. ang lagi ko naman naririnig dun, pera at panlalait lang. sa ibang tao ko lang naririnig ang magaganda salita, like example nalang sa aken. instead daw na gumanda ako at pumuti. umitim daw ako at pumangit, galing daw ako sa america di man ako gumanda. sa baby ko naman, filipino nose daw ilong nang baby ko, tapos kamukha ko lang daw sya. means, my baby ugly daw!” kase, since kids palang ako.. linalait na nila kami. pangit daw kami! pero we just ignore them. inggit lang sila! haha. everytime nga i had a problem i always said to my husband. and my husband said, just ignore them. they just jealous! -,- ihh, some my friend nga here always nila ako inaaway, diko nga alam sa kanila bat ako lagi nakikita nila. im stupid daw! we have a driver kasi here and his family live here too. before when they still here. people in cuayan, where i grew up. they always said, im stupid! bakit kaya ganyan ang culture nang pilipino ano? inggitera, tas mapanlait pa. pero kahit ganyan sinabi sa ken, wala ako sinasabi. kasi i know naman the truth. kung papatulan ko sila, parang katulad ko na rin silang basura! sabi nga nang husband ko, kapag pinatulan mo ang basura, isa ka na rin basura!:) dun kasi sa men, kung saan ako lumaki nuon bata ako. people there like gossip, you can see them on the road talking, doing nothing and sitting on their butt. at once na di mo sila pinansin, oyun. its means masama ka nang tao. like me, since kasi i have own family at di nako nakatira duon. sabi nang mga tao sa ken; “naging mayaman lang, mapagmalaki na! nagbago na!” di naman totoo yun, di ako nagbago at lalong di ako mapagmalaki. wala na kasi ako masyado time sa pag baba-barkada lalo na sa mga tsismosa. iba na kasi kapag may sarili kana familya, ofcourse my time po sa family ko nalang at nag iba na libangan ko. wala na gimik gimik. ^^

anyway, matagal - tagal na din nung nag post ako nang picture nang baby ko. here some picture of her now!

——— while we’re eating in resto ——–

this toys from her auntie rachiel. that’s her pasalubong!^^ alright, i think that’s enough for today. haha. see yah later!